Did She Knows..

Did she know I thought about her when I woke up each morning, as I drifted to sleep each night, and most of the time in between; and that even when I was not consciously thinking about her, I continually sensed the presence of her love within me?

Did she know that the best pleasure that I used to get was to make her smile on her face; and that I said little prayers over her asking for sweet serenity to always grace her countenance?

Did she know she went to places in my heart and mind where no one had ever gone before; and that I exposed the totality of my self - the good, the bad, and the ugly - because I had such complete and utter trust in her love for me?

Did she know I admired the way she cared for her family, friends, and anyone in need, and accepted everyone without judgement or criticism?

Did she know she was the best friend I ever had, and the bond between us had a depth and breadth that could not be severed by anything?

Did she know I thanked God daily for intersecting the winding roads of our lives so that my life might be forever changed by the touch of her spirit; and that I believed God sent her to love me, lift me, and lead me to a better place emotionally and spiritually?

Did she know I loved her profoundly and unconditionally, not just for her loveliness, personality, smartness or intelligence (all of which I adored), but more for the grace and goodness that defined her essence to me; and that I marveled at how I was drawn to her gentle warmth, like flowers to the morning sun?

And I wonder if she knows that I love her still, not less for the passing of yesterdays without her, but more for knowing what will be missing from all my tomorrows; and that it helps me, when I contemplate the harshness of life in this unyielding world, to remember that out there somewhere is a rare and precious soul - and she loved me.

.....................Did She Knows

                                       - Zaiin x3 Anu